It is better to have Faith

The first thing that comes to mind when I hear the word Faith is my precious baby girl...well she isn't a baby anymore but still :) When I was pregnant with her we were certain we were having a boy. My husband's family had very few girls and his brother had a daughter born just a few months before so we were certain we wouldn't get a girl. Through out my pregnancy we bopped between "Jordyn" and "Rhyan" for boys names and never discussed girls names. We had a 3 1/2 year old son and could have used the names we had choosen for him...at one point my husband said if we had a girl he wanted to call her Ariel...I said sure since we weren't having a girl. Well the doctor said it was a girl and we were both shocked and asked "A what?". Then came the difficult task of picking a name for this little angel. Since I had agreed to Ariel that was what he wanted to call her :( I really didn't like the name so out of spit I picked some names I liked and knew he hated, I gave him a choice between Jessika, Jenifer and Jacqualin, all of which I knew he didn't like. He decided on Jenifer...so we now had Jenifer Ariel (but she would go by Ariel) we needed one more. So I suggested Hope or Faith, and his response was "It is better to have Faith than Hope" so we had a name for our precious little angel, Jenifer Ariel Faith.

Faith is a big word in my mind, it means believing in something you can't see, touch or feel. You have to blindly believe that things will work out for the best. Faith doesn't always mean believing in a higher power, sometimes it means having faith in other people. I have a difficult time with this as I am one of those types of people who likes to see everything in front of me. It is hard for me to believe that if I just sit back that things will all fall into place. In Al-Anon they teach you to 'Live and Let Live' which means to let things be and have faith that they will all turn out the way they are supposed to...this is very hard for me. I don't know if it is because I am controlling or that I don't trust people but I have a hard time allowing things to just be.

Faith is something most people say they have but then do their best to control the situation so it works out the way they want it to, therefore they didn't have faith that it would work out they had faith that they could make it work out. I am one of those people, I must learn to have faith :)