Breaking the Rules

In today's society you are surrounded by rules and I don't think there is a day goes by that you don't break a rule or two.  Perhaps you didn't know that was the rule or maybe you felt you had no choice "no one would get hurt and what choice do you have."  I think no matter how hard you try in life you can't get through the whole thing without breaking a rule or two.

As children we push the rules just to see if Mom and Dad are serious about what they say we can't do.  For me as a child we had some rules that were very strict and others that were easily bent.  My two younger brothers had been diagnosed with ADHD (not what it was called then but) and we lived on a very strict diet.  I know that I pushed the rules a lot then because I had the attitude "but I don't have ADHD so why do I have to suffer?"  As a teenager you try to find yourself amoungst all the rules.  You try to figure out where you belong and what is important to you.  I grew up in a family where my mother had her hands full and she left me to fend for myself most of the time, she knew that I would not get into too much trouble and if I did I would call her.  I lived my teenage years trying not to add to my mother's stress and lived with the motto "what she doesn't know won't hurt her," and for the most part it was true.  I wasn't a horrible teenager but I did try things that were breaking some rules but I quickly figured out that wasn't for me and choose not to do them again.

Since I had been left to drift most of my childhood I have spent most of my adulthood doing the same thing, drifting trying to find my place.  As in my teenage years I have tried things that I later say is not for me and move on to something else.  I have abided by the majority of society's laws and for the most part am a law abiding citizen...but I think we all have our moments.

I have broken some major laws...not civil laws like murder or theft but religious laws I guess...I was divorced...in my childhood I was taught that divorce was a sin against God and that once you said till death due you part you were joined in the eyes of God...well after 6 years my marriage ended and I moved out.  So those firm believers in God's rules would say in the 9 years I was away from my husband I committed many sins and broke many of God's rules.  When it comes to society rules I try to be a very good girl, I think because I saw my brother break the rules and go to jail for them so I don't want to be punished like that so I think the worst I can say is that I tend to speed when driving...never in a school zone or where there might be children, but on the highway I always set my cruise control 5kph over the posted speed limit.  I had my first beer at 15 and never drank again until I was 18 (the legal age where I live), I skipped a lot of classes in high school until they asked me to leave because I was absent more than I was there.

So I guess my point is that I am not a perfect person I don't follow all the rules.  I do try my best to be a good person and live by as many rules as I can and know that one day I will sit in judgement on the rules that I broke and I will have to answer for those choices and at that time I am sure I will wish I hadn't broke as many rules as I have :)