This weeks challenge in my blogging group is blog about "things I am good at". This is a difficult topic for me as I don't think I am good at anything. I have never actually accomplished anything in my life and feel that is because there is really nothing I can do well enough. When I was a child I was in gymnastics and I loved it very much but I was never very good at it, if I recieved any awards or metals it was only because there wasn't enough good gymnastics there to fill all the metal positions.
I never finished high school...well I got my diplomia through correspondence but I couldn't get it done while in school. I was never good at any of the subjects, especially math and science. I struggled to read any of the books assigned in class, I couldn't concentrate after school enough to do the homework assigned. I just never cared enough to really try and I was sure that even if I did I wouldn't do well.
I have always had trouble making friends so that makes me believe that I am not a good person either, because after all if I was wouldn't people want to hang out with me? I have tried over and over again and I always seem to be that person that you have a phone number and email address for but you can't really remember how you know them. I try to be part of things like Girl Guides with my daughters, preschool with my sons but I never could find friends that really wanted me around. I seem to find lots of friends that want to be there when they need you but very few that want to be around when I need them.
I have been told that I am very loyal and that when I have someone in my life I do my best to treat them the best I can and always be there for them when they need me. I have been told that I am a good mother and a family person although I seriously doubt that as I have two teenagers I can't control, one step daughter who hates me and a preschooler who is out of control most of the time...if I was a good mother that would not be the case. I have been told I am artistic and creative but that is only sometimes and I know that there are people who are much better at it than I am.
I guess the bottom line is that I am who I am and hopefully there are people out there that love me the way I am, good or bad it doesn't matter.
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2 comments:
Awesome blog and I totally agree! Good or bad, there's someone out there who accepts you for who you are!
Girl, you are awesome!
I think you are such a compassionate person. And you have such a fantastic mind!!!! I absolutely love reading your blogs, they make me think so much! You write well, and I get so engrossed in reading what you write that I can't look up. I love it.
I have to agree with Ashley, we all have good/bad qualities, and the poeple who can't accept aren't needed.
P.S. I don't think teenagers can be controlled, nor is that a test of your ability as a mother. I think that as long as you don't eat your young while going through the teenage years, you're doing a pretty good job.
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